You see, as I've said in earlier posts, I haven't really committed to a goal and stuck it through. So, needless to say, as this goal is beginning to come into fruition, I am super stoked that I'm actually continuing on with it. You can imagine my disappointment when there were things that came into my path that threatened my ability to continue my training. My frustration was in full bloom when the pot holes and detours began appearing before me.
This pot hole came in the form of my wife's health. For the last nine months, she has been struggling with some major symptoms of headaches, fatigue (even when she'd sleep all night and most of the day), depression, body aches, etc. After nine months of wondering what the heck was going on with her, they finally found a diagnosis. She has been diagnosed with Systemic Exertion Intollerance Disease (SEID, formerly called Chronic Fatigue Syndrome). And this being a chronic condition, it is likely she will deal with it for the rest of her life.
So, that's why I've been so busy. On top of my normal job, I also would come home and most days, my wife would be completely drained by the time I got there. So I would take over and get the kids dinner, bathed, played with and in bed and finally hit the bed myself around 11pm because once the kids were in bed is usually when I'd get a run in. And I almost gave it up. But then I realized that if I did that, my wife would see her health as the reason why I couldn't complete my goal, and I couldn't live with that. So I decided, if she wasn't giving up, neither would I. If she was going to fight every day for the energy it takes to be a stay at home mom, I could certainly handle this. She became my inspiration.
So, here I am, striding on. I'm showing my family that if you want something bad enough, you gotta do whatever it takes to go after it. Even if it means sacrificing other things (I don't watch much tv anymore as the night time was usually my time to unwind and check out some Netflix. But that's probably for the better :-) TV make you lazy.)
Any of you who follow this blog, know that I'm still here. I'm not giving up. I'm going to cross that finish line on October 18th. And when I do, I'll have my wife to thank. She is the hero in this story. She is my muse. She's the one who's stayed positive about my training when we discussed whether or not I should hold off on it. And she will get my medal! Good night everyone. Remember, if you try for something you never thought you could do, even if you end up not being able to do it, look at all the other stuff you wouldn't normally have done along the way, and let those victories fuel you to try it again!
